Gosh, it's difficult to be in a relationship that isn't healthy. Been there, done that, and I sure do appreciate being by myself now - although I do believe I've finally had enough years of therapy and healing that I could actually have a healthy relationship (if I could find a relatively emotionally healthy partner!).

I'm so sorry for all the struggling and suffering you've experienced. Hopefully, you are much happier now and have been experiencing healing of a lot of old wounds.