I can sure relate to this, Toya. Fear has done an awful lot of damage in my life. Even after I understood that, even when I knew better ... sometimes it seemed just too big to beat.
It's lost its grip on me, too - for the most part. At least, I seem to be much better at letting go of it in ways that hurt me or sabotage me. Will it ever go away completely? I suspect it's more like whack-a-mole. There will be situations that invite it but I'll keep slamming it on the head!
Thank you for sharing your insights, Toya. This will help a lot of people. 💜