I knew instantly where this was going..because, of course, I can relate to it. My friend, this is an insanely brilliant piece of writing. Absolute genius. I'm so sorry you went through all of this - but holy smoke, look at how incredibly amazing you are because of it - how rich in wisdom and insight and compassion and all those other great things you are, and therefore, how much you're able to help others. I adore you. I knew I would. xoxo