I love this! You know I can relate to the awful family stuff ... but it's been many years since I had enough healing that it doesn't bother me anymore. Used to be pretty rough but now I look forward to it for what it means to me. I'm not a Christian, never was (heaven knows I tried - I forced it down my own throat for years but it just never fit). But those old family issues used to still be amplified. Now I don't even think about that stuff, thank heaven. I can see the lights and listen to the music etc. without the ghosts of Christmases Past haunting me.
I hope the holiday season has enough love and light and healing in it to be a wonderful period for you, my friend. Big hugs and loads of love to you 💜