I never asked that question because it had been drilled into my head that i didn’t deserve anything or anyone good or nice. I simply accepted that as truth. So I’d wistfully look at those people and simply wish I could be like that but with a powerfully wistful undertone of how stupid it was for me to even think that.

Parents can sure mess with our heads, right??!?!

I’m so sorry you felt that same awful exclusion and “difference” and that you were treated so badly. 💜