Jill, I'm so grateful for your kind message. Thank you!!! - and especially for what you said about the guy after #6. That was so harsh. I mean, he didn't have to say all that nice stuff when we spoke. He could have just sort of smiled and nodded, but he didn't have to say, "I'm in no position to judge because of being an alcoholic" and then acknowledge he'd done a lot of things he wasn't proud of. In saying these things, he made me feel safe, like "Whew! we'll be okay!" And it was all fake.
Oh, well. Not the guy for me. Maybe there isn't one. That'll be okay, if that's what's meant for me :)
Thanks so much for your lovely comments. I appreciate all you said! 💝