Jon, far from inflicting any pain, you have shared kindness and compassion with me. I can't even begin to tell you how much I appreciate all you said.

I do love my son and I will always love him. It's just that sometimes I feel like if I say that to people, they think, "How could you?? After what he did???"

At the end of the day, it doesn't matter what they think, of course. But this is a really difficult thing to live with.

Thank you so, so much for your beautiful message and for being so kind and so gentle with me. It means more to me than I could ever say.