Oh, my goodness! You told this story with so much love and heart ... I could feel every bit of your fear, your hope, your angst - that relentless waiting.

I can relate to this in so many ways so I understand why you felt the way you did throughout your beloved father's illness and after his death.

Thank you for sharing your story. I'm sure plenty of people feel guilty for being relieved when a loved one's suffering is over, but isn't that kind of twisted when you think about it?? We SHOULD be grateful that they aren't suffering!

I'm sorry for all the pain you and your family endured - and for your father's terrible suffering - but I'm so glad he's at peace now so you can think of him with love and not fear and worry.