Oh, my - Theodore, I'm in tears. I'm not even good at poetry - it isn't usually something I 'get' or enjoy reading, but this...for it to make me weep - this is so powerful, so deeply moving, so terribly painful yet filled with such deep love for your sister. I'm so, so sorry for your loss, such a tragedy. Thank you for sharing this intensely private piece. May you find comfort in your precious memories of your sister, of peanut butter and honey sandwiches and tea, and all good things that remind you of her.