Please be mindful of your words. Your body is listening and words (thoughts) carry powerful energy. When you say something is killing you, if you think it enough your body can set up a life-threatening illness. Say it’s hard or it hurts but don’t say it’s killing you.
Yes, it sucks to cut ties to your children. You have a choice. You can live without them in peace, or with them and in constant turmoil, toxicity and unhappiness. It’s a crap choice but it’s all you’ve got.
Staying on the merry-go-round doesn’t do anyone any good and it doesn’t help your children either. It just contributes to them staying stuck in unhealthy patterns and behaviours.
Still, it is your choice. But if you choose to stay stuck in it, there is no point talking about how miserable you are.
I know it’s hard to cut then off. For me, it got so bad it was harder not to do it. I deserve better. I’m nobody’s toxic waste dump. I refuse to be treated with abuse and disrespect by anyone.
That’s my choice but it doesn’t have to be yours.