Well, my friend, you can't be good at everything. And some stuff just won't ever make sense. Sometimes, we just have to trust, have faith etc. And sometimes that doesn't cut it.
Maybe you're not able. Maybe you're not willing. I don't know which it is - only you do.
We can't all be the same. And we're all on different journeys. Our experiences can be so different from what others go through, and we can't always directly relate to theirs.
There's nothing wrong with that.
This might not be something you can ever get your head around. If it bothers you enough (or whatever word you want to use), perhaps see if you can figure out why. Maybe there's a gift hiding in there somewhere for you.
One thing is for sure, there is no growth or change in a comfort zone. But there's nothing wrong with being comfortable either.
I appreciate you reading this, Kyle. And I just have to say - for all your confusion and "I don't think I can do this", it's interesting that you keep coming back to read more ... 💜