...which is quite likely tied up in the same issue that makes you hate losing...could be connected to something deeper like a fear (or feeling) of being unlovable/unloved. That's a pretty huge fear of rejection - no GF till 28?! Wow.

And you are definitely not boring!!!

I'm glad you have a kitty! They are so lovely :)

This was interesting, Jimmy, thanks for sharing. I can relate to the anxiety and panic attacks. It sucks that you're struggling with them. Suffered with loads of that in my younger years. Thank heaven I figured out how to stop it.