Yay! That's wonderful! I'm so pleased it went well.
Happy to publish your work - I love your stories!
I know you're facing another annivesary soon... hope you have a plan for that one, too. You seem to do quite well with preparing yourself as much as is possible for these difficult occasions. Not everyone is that conscious of making that effort - nor having it work as well as it does for you.
Obviously, I don't live in your skin or even in your house, but from where I'm sitting, it seems to me that you're doing as well as anyone possibly could in your circumstances and getting through such a tremendous loss. It doesn't mean it doesn't hurt - a LOT - it just means you're taking the time and working through it as well as anyone possibly could.
Many have more immediate support (in terms of people physically present) than you do, and don't handle huge loss as well.
I'm glad you're honouring your feelings, and also making sure you take care of yourself. Best ways to get through something so painful. 💜